Hectic

Why do college tutors insist on everything being in on the same day?

Inspiration in NY?

Wow! It's been almost an entire year since my last post! I've been trying to figure out why since I'm on this thing all the time surfing the web, doing coursework, researching where I can get the best deals on which ever new accessory I need or flight away from home! I do keep a paper diary too which is a little easier to access I suppose. When something is on my mind i do tend to write it on paper rather than type, but the resolution this year (among other things) is to keep as up to date as i possibly can on this blog... Let's see how it goes!

So, following on from my title, I am feeling rather inspired right now and I had to let someone know. Recently I have bought lots of new DVD's (old and new films - I'm a bit of a film fanatic) and one of those films consists of every girls holy grail... Sex and the City 2! I absolutely LOVE the series and the stories and the mischief that surrounds those girls! Everything about it is fun and true, not to mention the lurid sex talk and half naked men that swan around on a magnificently regular basis... After watching each episode and both films, I have now decided I want, sorry, NEED to go to New York. I don't care if it's for a month or a life time but I need to experience it! There are so many things that I feel I need to do with my life and it's being wasted here in this small town, with my lacklustre job that with every breath makes me feel like I'm loosing a thousand brain cells and raising my blood pressure to about 1000/9000. I swear sometimes I can actually feel the blood pumping to the surface of my veins, trying hard not to burst through my skin and drown my work computer... Or my obnoxious boss... But that's enough of that! There is no place for that 'man' to be written about on here....

So, yes, I think I will move to NYC and live life like Carrie Bradshaw/Preston and marry a guy like 'Big' and have a wardrobe as big as hers... But filled with some much less expensive clothes and many, many more jeans!

That would be nice, wouldn't it?

Life

Have you ever just wanted to get out of the house and just keep on walking?

Ever just wanted to walk away from everything? Or felt like you have no one to talk to or that even if you did, they wouldn't even know where to begin to understand what you're feeling? That's pretty much how I feel right now. Every afternoon I go out and walk as slowly home as I possibly can - I'm starting to wonder if one day I might just walk past without looking back. Right now everything just feels like it's so much effort. Too much effort.

How can I even begin to tell anyone how I'm feeling? Because unless you are going through it yourself, you have absolutely no idea how difficult things can get, or that even the slightest 'wrong' comment or 'bad look' from that one person who is expected (by yourself) to know how it feels can send you into a wallowing pit of lugubrious emotion.

I crave wanting to talk to you, but I know you don't get it, or if you do, it doesn't seem like you're interested. I just want you to help me feel better. And sometimes you do. But right now, it doesn't feel like it. Right now everything just feels so so wrong. It feels like I don't belong anywhere I thought I did. And I don't know how to do this any more.

New Year

Happy New Year to everyone!

I'm not going to bore you all with lame resolutions and moans about weight issues now Christmas is over. All I wanted to say is I hope everyone has a great one this year. I have a feeling something is going to happen that will change things this year... Hopefully something good.

Will blog again soon x

Holiday's

Who has any ideas for the perfect holiday? We (my boyfriend and I) came back from our last holiday in September and already we're looking for our next. So far we've been to the Dominican Republic, Fuerteventura and Mexico.

As you can see, we like the Caribbean, but I want something different this year... Maybe India or somewhere? It has to be hot, near a beach and have things to do and see. Hmm...

Id like to go around June-ish.. That's be nice. Actually, a permanent holiday would be better, but I guess we can't always get what we want!

Will blog again soon x

Why this is being done - intoduction

Herro to the world!

Well, as you can see, this is the beginning of my blog. The beginning of a new phase in my life.

I guess I should introduce myself. I am Amber. A new adult. I am me, and you are you.. Unless you are only pretending to be you.. Which some people do at times..

Anywho, this blog will act as my diary as long as I feel like continuing to spill my innermost thoughts and secrets to the entire world.

So lets see how this goes.

Will blog again pretty soon! x